finding puzzle pieces

It has been tough, the last month or so. Looking for jobs, looking for apartments. Mostly looking for direction. The direction that I am getting comes really slowly. little pieces that don't make any sense on their own. I am hoping someday they will fit together. That I can sit back and see the whole picture. But for now all I have is scattered puzzle pieces.

Even finding the pieces has been a journey.
-Back in July, I finally found a car. It was not what I was expecting, and its not glamorous by any stretch of the imagination, but it is 4 wheels and an engine that works well and will be reliable.
-Three weeks ago, I started coming into anchorage for church. I have met just a couple people my age, and am slowly starting to connect there.
-Tuesday, I got to babysit at church. On Sunday, they mentioned that the ladies Bible study is in desperate need of childcare. I know its kind of hard to plug in right away to an established church quickly. The only way I even got to talk to the lady in charge is she asked the lady standing next to me if she was available on Sunday. So what do I do? I catch her, explain that I am new but I have experience with child care at church, and am available to help. They did really need me, and were glad I was willing to step in and help out. In the process, I had an adorable 2 year old just plop down in my lap.
-Tuesday afternoon, I was connecting some of the dots with the apartment application process. I walked up to one of the offices just as the manager was getting back, and we sat down and got everything squared away, and next thing I know, I am scheduling a move in date. So I will be officially living in my own place Friday. No furniture to speak of yet, or dishes at all, but I will be in my own place.

A big part of the picture that is missing is still a job. Also, a good group of friends. I do feel lost without my college group around, knowing that I could go anywhere on campus and find someone to hang out with. With the lack of job comes a lack of direction. Should I be pursuing work in aviation right now? Or look into something else? I just dont know, and it is driving me crazy.

But in this moment, I chose to not stress about it. I am sitting out on the porch, enjoying the cool air, sunshine, and constant small airplanes flying over. As I take in the sights and sounds of anchorage, I stare at the scattered pieces of my life, wondering how in the world they are going to fit together. I guess its not about the end picture. Its about finding each piece, the struggles of finding it, and the joy it brings when it is found. Don't forget what it took to find your pieces.